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[29 Nov 2009|08:40pm] |
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Last night I played a show with Slithering Beast. It's been a long time since I've played bass for a crowd of people. It felt great. Better still, we played at a place with a huge P.A. meaning my bass sounded big and awesome. Zack and Zane seemed to also have a good time. All in all, it was a good break in show.
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| why why why |
[14 Nov 2009|09:55pm] |
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Anxiety is back, I think about my dog dying all the time. I think about Sarah getting pregnant. I think about Sarah not wanting to hang out with me. I think about getting old and dying alone. I think about 2012. It's Saturday night and I haven't been out all weekend. I just want to sit at home and cuddle with my dog.
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| Sitcom |
[08 Nov 2009|11:53am] |
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I need Greg Bradys help. I was supposed to eat dinner with Girl A till Girl B called and asked if I wanted to go to a concert. And of course I did. So I immediately called Girl A and made up a lie as to why I couldn't make it that night. Later in the day while at work I was playing around on facebook and noticed Girl A was planning on going to the same concert as Girl B. So after my mini freak out I thought up a scheme so I could still go to the concert and if caught wouldn't look like a bad guy. Long story short, my plan worked. The funny part is this is the second time something like this has happened with the same two girls. AND the EVEN funnier part is Girl B is just a friend, no sex, no making out, nothing, just hanging out once in a while. And I'd still rather hang out with her then Girl A. Sometimes I hate myself in the morning.
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| Happy Holidays |
[03 Nov 2009|11:39am] |
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Halloween night I went to Target and Meijer and drove past Walgreens. All three already had Christmas decorations out. I get the whole consumer thing and the rush to be first. But it all goes to prove my point, Christmas has become too big and commercial. Like Charlie Brown said.
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| I should've known |
[26 Oct 2009|01:12pm] |
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Sometimes you're so close to a problem that you can't see the simple solution. For years I've thought that as I get older I've become bad at sex. But it seems that condoms were the culprit. It's like a midget has my penis in a stanglehold. I've only had sex with three girls without a condom. And as I look back I begin to realize that everytime I've had mind blowing, life altering sex it was without a condom. I should've been able to pick up on that earlier but for whatever reason I didn't. Now that I have that figured out I can move on but the next immediate problem has already arrived. I feel stuck in this relationship. I've been hanging out with a girl I dated in highschool. She's going on and on about how her mom loves me and I was the best boyfriend she ever had and blah blah. I find the whole thing off putting. I wasn't looking for anything serious, I just wanted to hang out and catch up with an old friend. And as the old story goes one thing lead to another and we end up having sex. Oh and before that she made a big deal about she didn't want to have sex unless she was sure "I liked her, like that". I had every intention in the world that night to tell her we weren't looking for the same things but again, it all starts with an innocent movie, and a little cuddling on the couch. The next thing I know I'm on my way to work without brushing my teeth. If a friend came to me with this same situation I would say "man up, you have to tell her". But that's easer said then done. I could go for the weasel way out and just hang around till she realizes we have nothing in common. But I have my suspicions that will take longer then I can handle. I know what I need to do. Damit damit damit if only I didn't put such an emphasis on integrity. Well, if I had real integrity I wouldn't be here in the first place. I suck.
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